My World

I am listening to Mellon Collie and The Infinite Sadness by The Smashing Pumpkins as I walk through my home picking up items and straightening up things.  Rain is pouring outside and thunder periodically booms through the sky as it answers the lightning's call.  Alex is at school and Logan is sitting in the recliner with his Tag readers and reading pen--every once in a while he looks up and watches the rain through the back door. I was thinking about how sick I am of the rain--I hate getting out in it to take Alex to school or to run errands.  It does add a new sense of adventure to an errand when it's pouring rain and thundering (and a 4-year-old is with you).  Logan sat and watched the rain fall on the patio for a while and then said, "Mom, my strawberry and blueberry plants are getting a big drink of water today."  Children are just so cute sometimes.  My two boys are constantly saying things that stop me in my tracks.  I am thankful that I am able to stay home with them and spend time with them each day--to be there during the little moments.  I don't wake up in the mornings and go to a big office or get paid a ton of money for my job duties--instead I have two bosses who have both stolen my heart.  They have these cute little faces, adorable laughs, and their innocence is a humble reminder of things I take for granted so often. Sure I spend most days doing laundry, helping with homework and projects, and cleaning up but I also get to eat lunch with them every day, take them outside and watch them play, build sand castles with them, watch movies or paint--I love spending time with them and I think I have the best job in the world right now. I get paid in hugs and nothing is more rewarding than a little boy thanking you for making lunch for him and then saying, "You're a good mommy!"  My world is a world of little boys--super heroes, sword fights, football, wrestling, bug hunting, club house meetings, and car racing.  It is also a world of kisses on a booboo followed by a band aid (which is a miracle cure for any boo boo),  reading the same book over and over again, making cookies just for the fun of making cookies (with two helpful little bakers), helping little hands hold a pencil and write their names, numbers, and letters.  My world is filled with kiddie music and movies I've seen a thousand times but still watch because a 5-year-old begs to watch it just once more and explains why it is, in fact, a really good movie! My world is reading bedtime stories each night, tucking my boys into bed, and hearing, "I love you, mom" as I hug and kiss them good night.  My world is Trix yogurt, Goldfish crackers, macaroni and cheese, and fruit snacks--My world is being there to see all of their firsts, cheering them on in everything they do, and encouraging them when they are struggling or frustrated.  My world is about teaching my sons to be good people--it's about the time out spot and explaining why certain actions have consequences and are not allowed.

There have been people--from time to time--who ask why I always talk about my children. The answer to this question is a simple one--my life revolves around them (their needs and wants) right now--they are my world.   I am very happy and feel right at home in my world.  I hope when my boys are older they can look back and cherish these little moments as much as I am right now.  They won't be little forever and I'm glad I am able to be here with them while they're little (and still think I'm great). Here's to my two amazing little men!